I became rather frustrated this week with a friend, they said something that was hurtful to me. They of course said it unknowingly because I never talk about my life with anyone, even people who have been in my life for almost a decade. I am independent in everything including my misery. I never saw the point in sharing my history, my ED, my mental health. I just don’t feel like burdening anyone with such precious personal information. Even if they are my good friends.
That being said, I shouldn’t be getting so frustrated with them for not knowing what they said was upsetting to me. They didn’t know and it certainly wasn’t their responsibility to filter certain things they say.
I don’t know how to get out of the habit of keeping everything inside. I am broken in many ways, and although I am slowly putting myself back together again, the brokenness still hurts.