It’s been a really rough mental battle day. Lots of thoughts swarming through my brain like a cloud of angry bees telling me life would be better if I ceased to exist. It’s been an exhausting day. 
I do not sleep a regular sleep schedule. It’s typically an hour here or there, not consistent, and not nearly enough, sometimes it’s a few minutes passed out on the floor at work. I know that doesn’t help but I can’t get my mind to shut off long enough to get a good nights sleep.
I’m struggling with praying about these days and during these days. I’d rather not bother God with my struggles.
Blah.
