pain

I really just want to be at the whole clothed with strength and dignity and laughs without fear of the future part of my life now please. I don’t feel strong enough to survive this pain much longer. Key word there being “I”, I guess. God needs to be my strength. I need to let […]

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Even If

There have been two songs swimming through my brain for the past two weeks. Usually when I am stressed out I neglect my time with God in a huge way, which causes more stress! I think my brain knows this so it plays two songs on repeat. Even If by Mercy Me, and Reckless Love […]

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Sweet Victory

I don’t remember what it’s like to live life without chronic pain and fatigue or the ability to breathe through my nose. I know I have it made compared to some people. Hell, I have it made compared to my brother. But I’m still sick and I still have to look at this face every […]

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Ptsd 

It’s been over a month since the accident and I’m still in so much pain. Mentally and physically.  The pain meds aren’t working and I can’t sleep. I thought by now the panic attacks and nightmares would be done but it seems each day is getting worse. I can’t sleep unless I take a sleeping […]

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Agony & Denial

This is the three hundred and nineteenth time I am attempting to sit down and get through this post without breaking down into a mess of tears. Here we go. There are so many years worth of pain hidden deep within me – it’s so much more comfortable to live with it than to work […]

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